Lovecross Ministries is the 1st part of who I am and what I feel God is wanting me to do. The idea was created 5 years ago after the loss of my 3rd child to 1st trimester miscarriage. This devestated me and I questioned God and "why" He allowed me to go thru this. He allowed me to go thru this I believe so that I can help others who have lost a child be able to heal and cope a little bit better. At 1st this was for parents who have lost a child at any age to death. It has just been recently that I also have to include a custody loss of a child as the pain, devistation and hearache is very real and crippling. It doesnt matter that the child is alive-the pain and loss is still there. 2 years ago I personally went thru this kind of loss of my 2nd child. I have had feelings of anger towards my family over actions that were done, feelings of helplessness, but most of all severe grief and depression. I have lost 3 children-2 to death in misscarriage and 1 to a custody battle. I do get to see my son and talk to him so that is the "plus side" of this but my grief is very real.
I guess God is bringing me to a "new chapter" of my ministry. Instead of letting my feelings of grief and loss consume me I need to follow the Lord's calling and let Him use this to help others. I will be getting a web page made up soon for dedications that I will print for anyone who needs to make a dedication to their child-living or "away from home".